I just spent some time catching up on your situation and want to send a big hug.
You're inspiring me to be more patient.
My H just moved out again -- he'd been living at home for months but the other chick started to pursue him again. He got lured toward her, started to be hostile to me, I confronted him, he bolted.
I am sad about it, it is a set-back.
But I'm recovering a clear mind, and I need to read about others in this situation and how they handle things.
You are holding a candle to light my way, did you know?
I'm glad you notice the little things that are positive. I'm glad your H smiles at you.
You deserve to do very nice things for yourself. Your strength is contagious.