last night s made homemade pizza and he and I were going to play a game of scrabbel, and for some reason I thought, at the last minute I am going to call h and see if he wants some, knowing probably that he will refuse..after a awhile of those, you get used to them..well he said he was just about to put one in the oven, I said "a homemade one"..he said" hardly..hmm maybe I will come over"..oh boy I ecstatic..he came we played a few games of scrabble..talked about the current events and church stuff..he left.BUT...for the first time in 25 years..he thanked me for supper!!!said he would see Sunday at church, but then forgot his bell group was going to visit another church.
So..is that a positive step or what!!! When I am down, I justify that he would hopefully refuse to do things with me if he really did not have some hope or a little care for me still left.As much as I don't want to hear those things, I prefer honesty to pretending.I am going to remain PATIENT..and keep praying that there is still a glimor of hope for a new r to begin.
