Hey thanks you guys..I needed some pick me ups..Kip..I have not read your threads closely..but were you the one who wanted out of the m? I will do better about reading your history.
hope the changes are for real, as I have always had a low self esteem, but have been doing better..I have even begun having a real understanding for a supervisor at work who is a downer, complainer, but then I look at her life, with an alcoholic h, who *itches and runs her life..and the old me was always butting heads with her, I now try to step back and deal with her differently. So I know you can change old habits for the better.
Mal..is your h at home or gone? I need to read your posts too..thing is I do read them, but then from going to so many different one, I forget who I read about and their whole sitch..sorry I will try to do better.
H did call me at work today about car ins that they say I did not pay.. we get it through the bank that he works at.. evidently with car ins..if they don't recieve it by the due date you are automatically dropped..I said I sent check last week, and that it is not due till 3/31..I told him I almost called him last night as I was weepy..he said he was not home..I said I know..actually I did not say that is why I was going to call, to leave a message..cause I know I would have been bawling if I talked to him and that would not be the best. Maybe he needs to know that I get sad..silly me I think he knows..I think he also knows that I want our m to work..when we went to c last spring and summer, these things all were discussed..so he knows. I have to realize on the down days that 6 months is not an end of the world time frame for sorting out ones life and thoughts..now as we approach the 1 year lease on the appartment in Nov..and if we have not talked..well I am going to have to get some guts here.He's the one who said he did not want to buy alot, cause he did not know how long he would be there..said he could get out of lease, but might have to pay if they could not rent it..so he went into all this giving me hope that it was not permanent..but I know things, people change.
