BTW, You said you're in Illinois, too. I'm in the boondocks of Huntley. How 'bout you? Michelle's practice is only about 20 minutes from here in Woodstock. If I can convince H to go to counseling with me, I may drag him there. Erin
"A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing."
-George Bernard Shaw
wow.. Erin..so close..I am in Sycamore..I was just to the outlet malls a few weeks ago.Wonder if there are many posters around this area..I keep reading about the get to togethers the eastern folks have..
Our sitch are very similar..will check out your thread..are you going to hop on over to piecing?
Nothing much..or maybe it is...went for walk this morning..thought h passed me..down at next corner he quickly turnes and came in a parking lot that I was crossing. Just wanted to tell me that there was a service at church in regards to war breaking out. I asked how things were he said ok..I said I hadn't talked to him in so long, he said on Sat., I said 5 days..he just smiled..I told him sonetimes I just want to call him up to tell him something unimportant, but that our d said that was crazy to call him for that..I said would it bother you if I did..he said no.
So maybe these are still small steps in the right direction..will be patient.
I feel restless..I want answers..I like to know what i am going to be doing..whether it is my job, if I am going shopping in 10 min. or 3 hours..I just want to know. I have been pretty patient these past months...and I know the time frame for repairing a m should not be measured in days or months.
Guess I know if I want some kind of answers then it comes back to talking to h, and I just can't bring myself to do that...when will I know that I have to, for both our sakes? It is easy to go on if things are comfortable..can I settle for what I have right now?? Does h like it the way it is..I don't know..should I feel lucky..he speaks to me, will go out, although not one on one,gives me money...But I know there is more to a m then that. Back to if I am willing to rock the boat... I am rambling..really did not say anything I have not felt before..sorry...funny I asked and answered my own questions...do I really need you guys!!!???YES YES YES Sue
Thought I would share some thoughts from an editorial about spring in this morning's paper. Sounds like a lot of our R's.
"It's good to be reminded that life comes back no matter how hard the ground has frozen or how seemingly entrenched and implacable the season. The daylight hours are lengthening, and man, hearing the music in his heart, regains hope."
Dotto..I am going to write that one down..I posted on KAW thread about spring and the rebirth of life..so I appreciated this. This is my last day off,back to work Monday..it has been wonderful to just slow down a little..I was able to pick back up on my quilting project..clean ..shop..read.. I would like to go to the Steve Martin movie, but don't want to go alone..don't know if I should ask h..I would like him to ask..but not going to sit and wait.
Quoting hoping:Back to if I am willing to rock the boat...
Good day Sue, It really turned out to be a fine Spring day here in the northeast today. I've been waiting a loonng time for a day like today.
A while back and now I forgot on whose thread I posted it, but I liken my obsevation on many people's stories here to cooking a pot of sauce. For most of the time, you let it simmer to bring out most of the flavor, but to make it better, you have to stir it up occasionally.
Him seeing you on the street and turning around to talk to you is a positive step. If he didn't want to keep in contact, he just would have kept on driving away, so this time he initated contact. That's great.
called h tonight to ask for his sisters work number, I was going to ask her to go to movie(I know a sly move to ask h to go!)he said he would go..picked me up, then after sil asked if we wanted to go back to mil for pizza..oh why can't he decide what he wants..it would be a little easier to understand if he would just say " I don't think I want to be m anymore", or "I think I would like us to work on our m, but give me some more time alone"..anything.....
