Fast forward a few days and your needs aren't getting met.
SD - I'm confused. And if I am you must be too!!!
What's the deal. What is getting you so down? Step back and have a look at the WHOLE big picture, not just you and H. What are your goals?
One day of hugs does not change anything. His attention and energy and effort are still largely elsewhere. So no, needs still not being met.
What is getting me down? The fact that I think I'd rather have a root canal than make love to my husband. I still feel interest and desire for sex, I just don't want it at all with him. When he touches me to make advances, I shut down completely. I feel violated and angry. I want to tell him to, "Please stop f*cking touching me." And, despite discussing it 3x now in MC, he still doesn't understand why I don't want to ML.
I don't trust him touching me anymore...it feels like it's always as a prelude to ML. He wants to get laid, so I get a hug or a kiss or he starts groping me when I lay down to go to sleep. He wants me to meet his needs, but mine mean NOTHING to him.
I guess I'm angry that I listened to him and have done everything he's asked and more, and he's not willing to do the same. Even when I'm telling him that I think of leaving because of this, it's not enough to light a fire under his *ss, stop making excuses, and DO something about it.
What do I want? Passion in my life. Desire for my partner. A healthy sex life. That's what I want.
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
