Went out for supper with kids for s birthday..then went to mil for cake...we were talking about church things and at our church on Sunday we have the offering of peace where you greet everyone around you(I really don't like doing it but I do)and I was saying how eveyone always says my hands are cold..and h said "what do you respond with"? I said usuallyI just say "I know, they are always cold".He said why not say "Cold hands warm heart". I thought how nice of him to say that, he sure did not have to..so I feel my decision not to dig into any deep talk right now might be a wise decision.(I will admit fear is still up at the top, but I also know from experience, and not always the best result, that confronting at a time when you are anxious, down, etc..is not good). Also when he dropped me off he came in to take some cheesecake home, we have some stuff to do around the house, woodwork to strip, painting..I had gone and bought a cheap hand sander to try and strip the varnish off, well I told him that I was going to take it back, that there is a little bit better one..he just smiled that cute smile and said"I'll get the sander..I said there are a couple others to choose..he just said"I'll get one"all the time smiling as he knows that I am quick to get the first one I see..I just smiled and said "ok..bye" I think one thing that I have alwys done these past years is that I am independent on things like that..I am not afraid to tackle any project that for the most part, the man would probably do.As I look back maybe h started to feel like what do I need him for..I do everything..garbage out..mowing..cooking, cleaning, laundry, shopping...yikes I need to take a break!!!He has had to do all that for himself these past months and maybe he enjoys it..believe me if he comes back there is going to be a major change in those departments. So all in all the weekend has been nice...I keep praying that these are all tiny signs of hope for our m to survive. Sue
