Just an update..h and I went with s to casino for his birthday..we casually talked..I asked the questions.."hows work".."fine"..We are also going out to dinner with some other family tonight for s birthday. I do not want to ask any r questions right now..h left a few days before our d birthday and I don't want to remember sons birthday with whatever he may say that is not what I am hoping for..Call me chicken..in deniel, but I am not ready to confront him..for the most part we are both seemingly happier..less tense..so is it wrong to push it right now? I respect the opinions I get here..as we are the ones who have experienced similar feelings and questions. Family and friends seem to wonder "what are you waiting for"? I admit that I am afraid of what he might say..and in time..when I feel the time is really right..not just a bad day that I feel like I have to have answers right now, then I will ask. Seems we are never alone for very long.. He told me about how our f pastor and he had gone out for a beer after a meeting one night..why does that bother me?? He has gone out to lunch with her too..there have been some comments made about it from other people.I have had some of the old feelings coming back thinking is there something between those two..she's d and he's seperated. Why can't I understand that males and females can be friends..nothing else. We have discussed that here before.."when is a friendship an affair" could be a book!! As like his other ff, the pastor has found a compasionate friend in my h to talk to about some issues with our other pastor..long story..but at least my h has told me about some of these things, so I know that she needs someone to vent to..and she is far from being the needy *itch the other one is.Why does it always have to be the single/d/sep females that confide in him!!!!??? I am really rambling..but I am gaining more confidence that that is why we are here..to listen, respond if we want.
The weather is suppose to be nice this weekend so I guess I am going to get out and enjoy. Sue
