Angelica,

It's been a long time since I read a post and began to cry. After reading yours, I was very emotional. I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH!! The mind games, the blame, the nastiness..out of NOWHERE! It is a full time job just being able to block out all of this nonsense. I KNOW!!

So, thank you for sharing your thoughts..It isn't easy dealing with this by any means, especially with children. Your boys sound like they are wondeful kids (just like their mom ) and know where your H's head is at..I am so sorry to hear about your son't panic attacks. I had issues with my kids concerning the stress the D had on their lives but mostly with their R with wacko Jacko Daddo.

As for my new R, it all takes work. I know how you feel when you want to stand for M but find out a few years later it isn't going to work. Just shows how much dedication and love you have to stand for a M that you know will take a ton of work. Realizing that your H is truly out there isn't easy, either. When I accepted that my XH is not really MLC but alot more issues I was sad. Then, I had to regroup and say ENOUGH..He has held me emotionally hostage for three years and I was DONE!

New Guy isn't a control freak..He is patient.He has to be because I have ALOT of emotional baggage that creeps up every now and then..However, this R is different because we appreciate the little things at this point in our lives. And we tell each other so..because of what we have went through..

So, Angelica, keep your chin up and keep being the amazing person you are..It all works out for the best in the end..

Kiki..

Thanks..after reading Angelica's post which got me all choked up I read yours and that made me even more choked up!!

THANK YOU!!

It's been a long haul but it has taught me soo much..

Uh Oh..D needs me..she is trying to get out of going to dance..

Have a great weekend..

xoxo

MTN xoxoxo

me - 43
XH - 47
S - 17
D - 14

engaged - 08
and happy!

bomb 04
divorced 06
engaged 08
happy in 09!