Out of the Abyss...

[cat03]

and now my suspicions are true, he freaked out and left not realizing how much his leaving like that hurt you.

Whatever the explanation is, please, please hear him out. He seems like a confused individual. You will have a change to ask him were he was.
As much as they've have hurt us with their As, our Hs are also very hurt themselves. And, a note of advice, do not tell your parents anymore, I know it's hard not to run to them and cry on their shoulders. THey love you so much they will hate him more and it will ultimately be harder on you.

It is understandable that you dont' trust him, I also battled hard to begin to imagen that I had to trust my H.But all in all, you have to start somewhere.

My H agreed to let me see his cell records from now on, I was gun-ho about checking them every month. But, later on I realized I wasn't so eager to do so anymore, if he wanted to cheat on again me he could without using that phone, he could do things behind my back. And who'd be the looser then? me or him? who'd be the one throwing away what could be a great M?
If the worst were to happen in my M I will know that I did all I could--I shouldn't have to monitor him to know he's being truthful--I would walk away with peace in my heart.