Wow~ you all are so sweet as usual! I am doing very well thank you, I have not had the internet for awhile now... cant remember how long it has been. But I can say that these weeks have flown by and for a bit it seemed rough and then poof as if by magic he has done so many 180s it almost seems unreal.
He has stopped drinking for the most part ( occasionally having a drink , when he and ****I go out to Buffalo Wild Wings),,, and he is also "clean". This has made a tremendous change in his attitude and he is just so loving now. Sure he occasionally has an outburst here or there but for the most part he is being just amazing. Really , there is a comfort between us that had never been there before. We are both very loving to another and the kids have also gotten so much happier as a result. He has gone out once , maybe twice since my last post,,,, the rest of the time he wants to go out he takes me with him and we have dinner or just have some wings and "chat".
I couldnt be happier,,, there is a calmness in my heart that feels so wonderful. I have waited a very long time for this and now it really and truly is finally here. Even this Christmas we will all be going to Mexico as a Family... Yeah I know somebody pinch me. And my role as the victim I am sure is far tucked away. No it isnt even tucked away it just seems to have left the building. I am also very proud of that too and thank you to sooo many of you here who opened my eyes and "slapped some sense into me" so to speak. The way we get along now and how Good this is just beyong words really. I could spend a lifetime with him like this....
And when he does get a little edgy I just let it go and in the beginning of breaking this I did have to tell him quite often you are being downright cruel and a few tears may have come down my face. And then I would let him come to me or decide to apologize or change the behavior. I think once he saw how amazing our days together could be w/o his anger he has worked very hard to change his actions.
Just recently we had a local Festival and he told me to get ready and hed be back for me. Then my cell died and I was waiting for him,,, well here he called me several times to get on down there to be with him. We also had our 11th ANNIVERSARY.... on SEPETEMBER 26... and the day before we had a fun time a Buffallo Wild Wings... and the next day you know what we watched Movies and snuggled on the couch. And I must say that was the best ANNIVERSARY ever.
Thanks Cat and Cog~ you are the best. And Thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone else for being there for me and helping me. I am at a local coffee shop on their Computer. I just found this place yesterday but ~ was too busy to post. I am doing well... I love you all so much and think of you often and keep you in my prayers always.And will keep in touch more when I can. Just know I will never forget you all. My Marriage is the best it has ever been, I feel truly blessed. Love and God Bless, Ali