I was almost a WAW (and still am-- in my heart?)

[Dom R]

After I spilled my emotional puke last night, I then told a few new folks that I would get back with them Monday (b/c I didn't want them to feel forsaken)......I had a little "quality" time with my H and I think it was good.

awww.. that's great
"it's all good" then ;-)

Sandi, your "outbursts" are some of the mildest I've seen, and you consistently have a positive, self-improving attitude on here. Dont beat yourself up about it so badly
I'm really happy that you had some positive time with your H... AND that you plan to focus a bit more on /him/, and a bit less on the boards. I think I need to scale back my time some, myself!

I forgot to tell you all that I went to see my doctor yesterday and he did give me a prescription for AD meds. We are going to just try it for a short time to see how it affects me.

a "short time"?

Hmm.

One of the reasons I never got onto antidepressants, when I was at my lowest point... was that the dr told me that once I was really on them, it would take me 3 months to taper off them.
maybe your proposed meds are different. but you might watch that.

Probably the ones i was going to go on, were significantly stronger than yours. I was a total mess at one point :-/
well.. make that 2 points. The week after she left... and about 6 months in, when I finally faced the reality that there was no chance of any speedy fix, and things were going to be bad for years, with no chance of a "sudden relevation" turnaround.

second time, was one of the worst things... yet it also helped me finally start detaching from the hurt. When I accepted what is.

Hmm. i should probably post that in.... i forget who was asking about detaching...