Might go and buy it then, I have some medication so I took that to calm me down, but I am definetly in another world at the moment. I will try to take it slowly and one moment at a time. Trying to keep myself busy and distracted but not easy.
We are not telling anyone, trying to keep it a secret so if we fix it all up, we will not have the baggage to haul around. Or as my doctor says that my W has a big albatross that she has to live with for the rest of her life. Anyhow, what I would love to be able to do is somehow get the message out there to anyone who might be considering infidelity how it is far worse than what seems like a little joy or escape at the moment.
We don't need advice not to cross a highway on foot, and many other things, but for some reason, and they might be selfish beyond human comprehension, people decide to have affairs and do other things that in the end hurt most everyone. I guess with crossing the highway, you can only do it once and then it is over, with affairs, you get hit by the cars over and over again.
maybe I should write a book, but chances are the people who should read it would not be the first ones to buy it.
