Get me on a smoother ride....need advice - part 3

[SueS]

Good Morning-

An intersting night. I went to bed not hearing from H, but still feeling okay about that. I had turned on the baseball game in our room and was watching it for a while before falling asleep. I heard H come home and he was ANGRY!! He'd been drinking and all I could think was......here comes the anger and belittling that I've been expecting from him......and I was waiting to hear him tell me a lot of negative things. He came in our room and was banging things around. I could hear him in the living room with the tv on (game was still on). The Cubs were losing and every other word out of his mouth was F*ck and I heard him throw a few things. Nothing broke, but I worried a bit. He came back in our room and sat on the bed watching the game & flipping the channels. He flipped on a Adult movie on Cinemax. I was almost asleep, but could hear him saying thngs like.....Oh yeah,.....Wow, those are nice. I could tell he was intentionally trying to get some sort of reaction out of me. When he didn't, he just went back out into the living room.

In the living room, I heard him settle down, turn off the game & turn on some music. He was listening to the new Bruce Springsteen CD. He'd bought it on Tuesday, but hadn't brought it home for me to hear. I got up and went to sit in the living room. I asked if he liked the CD. He snapped at me and said.....YES.

Here's where he tried to bait me!! I had on a light purple nightie. Nothing fancy, but comfortable. It has thin straps and I'll admit it's not the worst thing I could wear, but it's a little older and not one of my better ones. Here's how it went.

H: Do you like messing around with me? (We use the term "messing around" to describe intimacy.)
Me: Of course I do.
H: You're not really showing it. That's probably the ugliest nightie I've ever seen.
Me: Well, why didn't you just tell me you didn't like it?
H: It's a huge turn off for me when you wear it. It's just ugly.

So.............
I decided that I could go in 3 different directions with this.

1- I could get angry & hurt and say something rude/storm off into the bedroom.

2- I could calmly get up without saying anything, go to bed and just dispose of it tomorrow.

Or....AS I DID, I could chose option 3.

3- I calmly got up from the chair I was in, walked to the closet & got a pair of scissors. I walked back to H, who was sitting on the couch. I handed him the scissors & said......Here, if you hate it so much then cut it off of me. He got the most shocked look on his face. He quieted down, set the scissors down and said.....I tried to hide it from you, but you must have found it when you were sorting things out. Again, I said.....all you had to do was just tell me how much you didn't like it. It's not my favorite either. I walked back into the bedroom and grabbed a much sexier black one. I walked back out by the garbage (which H can see from the couch), took off the purple one, threw it into the garbage, but the black one on & went back to sit on the couch. Nothing else was really said.

I noticed that H had fallen asleep. I got up, grabbed a blanket & was just about to put it over H when he asked what I was doing. I told him that I was going to bed. He got up and came to bed too. Just then a huge storm started and D3 woke up for a little while.

This morning, when my alarm went off, H woke up and wanted to be intimate. I allowed it to start, but D3 woke up from some loud thunder/lightening. It was time for me to get up and I went into the bathroom. H surprised me by jumping in my shower with me..............

When I left this morning, H & D3 were snuggled in our bed. He was awake. I kissed his cheek, said love you & left. I didn't get a response, but it's morning, he's tired and hey, that's okay.

That's that!! It's rainy & gloomy here but it's not getting me down today. I feel okay.

I'm anxious for the weekend.

I'll check in later!

SueS