Whew, what a rollercoaster you are on. Makes my ride look like the kiddie ride at the park.
I'd agree that time might be on your side, but don't be too sure. The crying may simply be for grief over a relationship that's over, or it may reflect true anguish over what to do. You have to go by her actions, and right now it seems to me the one that counts is regarding the papers. As long as it's not final, there is still some hope. Don't delude yourself, though, about how much hope there may be. You just don't know until you hear it straight from her or her attorney.
I agree you deserve more straight from her. We all do. My W won't talk to me about anything emotional. Hasn't said a word about divorce, but hasn't said she wants to work together either. Four months in, she's a stone wall. It's damn frustrating at times, but I am moving forward with creating my own happiness now. It's all I, or any of us, can do. The sooner we recognize that, the better we will be.
Make it a good day for yourself and others. Create joy.
