although I am not familiar with your stitch, Im sorry you are feeling this way. feelings will come on suddenly and then get better. Having it be a friend of yours makes it even more difficult.
This is a good place to be if you are feeling this way.
Take Care
tal
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Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.