I feel that I want to write this to my W and the OM. I dried all the way to work, had to stop in a parking lot just to clear my head. I am angry beyond belief and totally not myself in any way.
I guess what I feel as a sorry sob is that perhaps I could not hear I am sorry and I feel so bad about what I or we did. I don't get it at all, so then I just trot along and pretend that everything is fine in a way. I am not saying that it will change anything, I guess I am hoping that it would make me feel a little better. My story is that the OM is part of our social club, and he was what one could call a friend of mine as well. The social gatherings are starting for the winter season so I saw him last night. Just a hello, was all, but I guess it triggered something in my subconcious or whatever.
I know that it is not fair or equal in any way, it just seems so odd, I just hoped that maybe he would have a little note where he just said I am so so sorry and I hope to get the same from my Wife but that is not happening.
Just feel very very lonely right now,
Thanks for listening, have a great weekend and if in Canada as I am, Happy Thanksgiving,
