Just got home from work, DD is staying with my parents for the weekend, so I am all alone in the house.
W left today (Fri) to go on her romantic getaway with OM, and won't be back until Mon night.
She left me a nice note to remind me to keep the house tidy, mop the floors and clean "my" bathroom. First time she has asked me to clean my bathroom as she does the bathrooms whilst I vacuum and mop both levels. I think it may be another way of turning the screws abit as I have not instigated any communications with her for several weeks, and she is doing all the calling. I suppose it is a way to try and push my buttons, but to no effect.
Also, she told me two days ago that she had a new mobile number, and I told her to just txt it to me whenever.......well I am still waiting for it. But I didn't call her old mobile for several weeks so I am not in a hurry to get it.
My moods change from time to time in relation to what I want out of life. Some days I want my W back and want my family to be together again, but then I think about other peoples sitches in piecing, and think whether I want to live like that again.
I am sort of happier with my freedom now, and when I look back on my life with W, she has failed in so many areas (that I did not see at the time). I think to myself was there a "reason" for me being away so often, and for the intimacy to have died? Maybe I was feeling the same way as she was, and she had the courage to nip it in the bud and walk........who knows.
I just find it so unfair that I stuck by her through everything, and she was so fickle to jump ship when things got tough for her.
