I think you're right about the distance thing. I find when i distance myself too much H gets really quite offended. I'm glad i spoke to him. He's away at the moment. So hopefully with the space he will think. My gut feeling is that he does want to make a go of things but is finding the withdrawal from ow very difficult. I wrote an e-mail to my family explaining, again, what i'm doing and why. I also thanked them for their concern.
Getting ow out of the school he works at is impossible. Also H has looked for other work, but he can't afford to leave. Financially we are a bit screwed at the moment so we're sort of stuck.
Thanks for your e-mail address and number.. I'm a bit worried about using my e-mail just in case H sees them. He would be absolutely mortified if he knew i was talking to total strangers about our R.
I just wish he would make it easier for me, if he has stopped this r with ow. Why does he still have a pin code on his phone and never leaves his phone on when he's at home. I want to put my faith in him, but he's not acting in trustworthy way.
Anyway, i'll just have to observe how he is next week. No more R talks for a while i think.. We're on holiday with the kids at half term, so hopefully that will help.
One interesting thing he did this morning was he went into the kids room before he left for work and explained that he's going to his friends retirement do and he will be back tomorrow.
See he doesn't want the kids to feel insecure... a positive sign. He also gave me a kiss on the cheek before he left. He hasn't done that for a while. I think i might have woken him up a bit last night.
Thanks again for listening, you're an absolute star!!!
