...and to dream that you are loading a gun, pointing it to your cheating WAS and pulling the trigger denotes wishful thinking since you can't do that in real life.
Me: 41 H: 39 D: 6 S: 4 M-14 T-16 first bomb: 5-12-07 (M dead doesn't really want to work things out.) second bomb: 6-4-2007 (found note he wrote about wanting desperately to be with OW and would have to give up everything) Kelley
...and to dream that you are loading a gun, pointing it to your cheating WAS and pulling the trigger denotes wishful thinking since you can't do that in real life.
Me: 41 H: 39 D: 6 S: 4 M-14 T-16 first bomb: 5-12-07 (M dead doesn't really want to work things out.) second bomb: 6-4-2007 (found note he wrote about wanting desperately to be with OW and would have to give up everything) Kelley
Good C session. C thinks it is OK to get W a card / write down the thank for... stuff, being a good mom, good memories, whatever, something that validates the shows her I actually appreciate what she has done during our marriage.
Funny thing is, I am off back to Vancouver on our anniversary so no celebrating anyway. W has not mentioned a thing, unlikely to say anything, I am sure I will get a card with nothing on it.
I am clearly still pursuing and still need to work on anger issues. It is part of my being and manageable. C recommended an anger management class...done that. Told her I did not get a lot out of it. I think when you know yourself and your weaknessess (my kryptonite) it is more a function of managing expectations / monitoring yourself constantly to keep those weaknesses under control...like an alcoholic.
FWIW, I do recognize all this and it is a lot easier to deal w/ anger when your not on pain pills or in pain. That really sucked but the upshot is I am cool now and know what can drag me down and any R I am in, kids, W, future W? whatever.
OK, now panty talk!
C
Me: 46 Wife: 39 D: 13 S: 11, 9, 7 Bomb 3.2.07, Sep Same Day, D papers 11.1.07 Current Status - Wants to take me through Discovery, I will go to prison first.
All sorts of typos above sorry. My man Rob Thomas is on leno tonight! Cool
Me: 46 Wife: 39 D: 13 S: 11, 9, 7 Bomb 3.2.07, Sep Same Day, D papers 11.1.07 Current Status - Wants to take me through Discovery, I will go to prison first.
"C thinks it is OK to get W a card / write down the thank for... stuff, being a good mom, good memories, whatever, something that validates the shows her I actually appreciate what she has done during our marriage."
Deep insights..... Good for you that you acknowledge your weakness(anger mgnmt). If only H can get there it will be a very good start for him. I beleive that is the first step towards healing.
