Still standing...

[theotherhalf]

I am very pleasant around H. Even funny somewhat, or flirty maybe. I try not to talk too much. Just enough to keep conv. going as he is not too much of a talker. Try to just listen when he is talking.

We do just talk about farm stuff, or work, or kids, or extended family stuff.

And by no means do I talk about R or OW or anything personal. Haven't done this in quite awhile. I don't believe what he says, and don't like what he says so I just stopped asking and talking about it.

Last night when he was in the field I looked in his truck to check his check book. (He knows I do this as I need to know what checks he's written). I found a woman from towns' phone #. It really bothered me. I so so wanted to ask him why he had it. I asked his brother if he'd know why. He said no unless he was looking at her house as it's for sale. Then I really wondered. But I still did not ask, again afraid of his answers.

Later I asked his sister. I guess the woman is his neighbor. She works at the auto store in town. H picked up his truck there the other day and she introduced herself and gave it to him. Didn't sound as though he was interested though. Who knows? I wanted to call the B***h and tell her to leave my H alone. Of course I can't but...

I hate all this....!