I'm still doing it

[nephartiti]

I just don't want him to buy himself out of his guilt. I feel like he may be thinking "I feel really guilty because I screwed up and abandoned my family and responsibilities. If I buy these things and thereby take care of them financially, I will not feel so guilty. Then I can continue being selfish and have my A without guilt."

I don't know how a WAS thinks, but this is what I am afraid he is thinking... subconciously of course.