update...not much has seemed to change. still getting the "I have felt this way for a very long time" line. I am going away tomorrow for the weekend. I think shes excited for that. she is curious about where I'm going, but I don't think it means much. shes still on her world tour hooking up with all her different friends everyday. I sent her an email yesterday that I think stirred her up a bit. not sure what part it was but I know she was crying while talking w her friend last night. I aso think I caught her attention on a financial matter. shes not a very forward thinker, so these aspects I'm not sure shes weighed out yet. I don't know what this means. I think she feels like shes hurting me and the kids an it makes her feel guilty. why would she show feelings for hurting me if she didn't really love me? anyway, I just heard her on the phone w her friend. I think her friend (who is having m trouble) said something to the effect "I can't believe you're doing this"..her answer back was "aren't you jealous" all this is very tough as I feel her ultimate plan is the D, but to ease into it so its not so rough on the kids. maybe I should file tomorrow and end it.
