hey lonelyolive, you mentioned that your H is a leader in the church? I read a book recently called "And The Shofar Blew" by Francine Rivers. It's not a self-help book, but a novel by a Christian writer. The man in it is a preacher who has an affair. It was such a good book, and I though you might be interested. It doesn't pull any punches with this subject.
And as for whether or not you are crazy, yeah we all are to some extent right now. This crap wih these ow has turned our lives upside down and we may be a little crazy, but we sure are strong crazy women to be able to deal with it the way we have. And that's why, even though I never intended for my user name to be verycrazy, it fits just the same. I didn't pay attention when I registered and I was stuck with it.
And if they are feeling disgusted with themselves or with ow, it's because they know they are wrong, and that ow are really not good people to be after them, even if they try to lie to themselves.
And perhaps he is feeling very guilty for doing this to you, to be the cause of yur misery, maybe that's partly why the depression of the past few days.
