Thanks...the "I choose Joy." comes from the realization (since this is my second time around with this mess) that when H leaves me on the fence while he ponders whether I'm worth it I tend to naturally Stop. I just stop living. I get consumed with HIM. And quite frankly he's just not worth it. With him gone and not being abusive anymore (he was excellent at making me feel insignificant - no respect at all) I am free to enjoy my space - my life - my kids. And I am. Life is continuing parallel to all of his MLC fog. And he's missing out on a lot. My D won't be 5 much longer - my S is already in 3rd grade. If I stop living again I'll have missed much of their childhood.

Ahhh...I digress on your thread ;). Anyway, God is my source of strength and I get so much from Him that my H can never give. So I stop looking for H to give it and turn to God. And by doing that I've made a choice...

Hope things continue looking up for you!

G

Last edited by Gingersnap; 10/04/07 09:59 PM.

Me (36) H (42)
M (12)
S-8 D-5 SS-18
D Day (PA) 12/02
S 10/03 R 1/03
S again 9/07
I choose Joy.