Stories don't always end

[BeingMe]

I think you are right, Cat!

In other news ..... my D20 gave birth to her baby girl last night. Her name is Chloe and she weighed in at 8lbs 12ounces, and 19in long. I am both sad and happy .... sad she is with her idiot much older boyfriend, and happy to have another grandchild. Isn't that just like life .... nothing comes without a price.

Anyway, I am in a gloomy mood today .... cried all night last night. No H to come and console me, since he was sleeping very peacefully, and on time, in the guest bedroom. One of the things that irritate me about him ... nothing, absolutely nothing, inteferes with his bedtime and wake up routine. Oh well, I should know better after 22 years of marriage, to hope that he will somehow know how I am feeling. He hasn't even tried once, or asked, to come back to our bed. So, that tells me a lot.

I need to get myself out of this rut ... I was so strong, but now I feel weak and pathetic. I can't concentrate on anything ... job interview went awful because I couldn't focus on the questions they were asking me. I am just a wreck. Too much happening at the same time, and I feel like I'm in a vortex of stress.

Writing this down does help, so thanks to those who got this far in reading.