You know I wish I could help. You are not $1000 a month worth of crazy. Sit back relax and imagine him giving you a back rub. I will try and comfort you from here. With my big old mean words. No feeling sorry for yourself!! You are smarter than that. No blaming yourself!! It will all work out!! I am going to get my air hammer. Just keep posting if ya need to.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
