Can you not talk to H about resentment? I resented my H when he didn't support me during and after my pregnancy. But I have had to let go of that because I can't change it. We reacted at the time, rightly or wrongly, blame hormones.
Keep up with the gym and lunch time walking, the endorphins will make you feel positive.
I can relate to trying to find other things to do other than be sociable but in the end I think it comes down to been needed by H's and mine certainly would rather I was out than in with him.
Maybe if you let your defenses down and let H nearer you may have a pleasant surprise? Still keeping expectations to 0 but hopes high?
H probably feels a bit 'obliged' if this ff is been beated up, men just don't like it.
XD
P/A confirmed 5/03/08
03/08 H said affair over, I dont think it is, h still doesn't want marriage
T: 13 M: 8 D:20 & 17 from Previous M S: 8 & 4 BS: May 07 ILYBNILWY S: 13/10/07
