OK, back to earth with a bump. W very negative today (bad nights sleep - I kept cuddling up and placing my hand in an intimate place) and started questioning everything again. She is so confused - a male person at work has been becoming more and more friendly (unwanted I might add) and this seems to be weighing heavy on her.
Stated that when work colleague or I touched her, she cringed and she didn't know why as we are both good people. She shed tears and stated that she was unsure about going on holiday, but was only going for the children. She is also feeling hemmed in when she returns home from work - What, Should I leave as soon as she appears?
So, where do we go from here? I listened to what she had to say, didn't make any waves and walked away from the conversation. She is now at work and I know what I would like to do tonight, which is give her a relaxing massage and if anything else happens, go with the flow.
She admitted that she enjoyed the intimacy last week and was not sure why it was different this week.
Maybe I should just chalk this down to her own rollercoaster and act 'as if'. Not sure if the massage will be accepted, but I feel that I should make the offer and shrug it off if it gets rejected.
Also said I was there to listen if she wanted to talk - she says there is so much going on in her head at the moment. When we were watching TV last night, she made some odd comments - politician was talking about the family and she reacted negatively 'forcing people to stay married' and 'I didn't have a happy family life'.
HELP, I need some tlc to help me continue this fight.
