Yeah, things are not great just now. I appreciate your sympathy.
W said a few minutes ago that she was planning a weekend in Berlin, where OM is. I said I know he is there, and that I would not take her to the airport. I then shut off the rest of the conversation.
The open issues are, I think,
o my son's upcoming very important fall term in 2008, when he has to get good grades to get into a good high school. If we divorce just before that term, I am afraid his grades will suffer and so screw up his future, something he does not deserve.
o selling our lovely house and garden, on a lake, something no one wants to do, plus it is a two minute walk from the high school my son wants to go to. Maybe my W could keep her half as an investment, so I don't need to buy her out?
o moral compromise- my W wants us to tell the kids that we don't love each other anymore and so will have 'friends' outside an 'open' marriage. That when I find a new woman who I want to live with, we would sell the house, thereby protecting the kids a while longer. I told her I was monogamous, that marriage was a sacred oath to me. On the other hand, another 15 months without love or affection is a long time, especially after 3-1/2 dry years already. I really don't want to come to my wife's level and do the same thing she did, though. The truth is that she left me and is the one breaking up the family, all her choice.
o is a quick divorce best, maybe just as school ends in June 2008? Maybe my son will recover enough for the fall school term?
o protecting our lovely kids, always, always, always
o I read that people who are alone are happier than those in bad relationships. Should I ask my wife to move out, suggest she live in Berlin, where OM is?
Lousy, all of this,
An overcast morning, with a fog that was over the trees at first, now lowering and lightening,
Luke
M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.
