I understand what you are saying and I'm not getting down on myself. I see the fork in the road and I know where the cheese is and where it isn't.

I have seen where we have grown, the X and I. I also see the work that still needs to be done. I am not writing about getting back together with the X but I am talking about having a solid ground for us to have a healthy R.

Thanks OT for the reality check, it is exactly what I am looking for while writing here.

I believe that dreams are more powerful than facts,that laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death