W is going to a football game this weekend in Houston and asked if it's OK with me if she shares a room with someone to keep costs down. There's like 9 people going. Initially I said yes, no problem. Now I'm wondering why she asked. If she was going to share with another girl, I don't think she would have even mentioned it. I think her guy friend who I have issues with is going and now it's in my head that that's why she asked, she might split a room with him. She's been very cautious with him in the past, refusing what I see as obvious advances (she doesn't think they are, says I have trust issues) so I have that going for me. But, I know they're all going to be drinking and I'm worried that he'll try something again (many of his "attempts" have been while they've been drinking) and if they're sharing a room, she doesn't have anywhere to go.
Now I'm stuck here thinking about something that may or may not happen knowing that I can't recant and say I'm OK with the room split as long as it's not with this guy. That'll set off all kinds of you don't trust me feelings and put negative thoughts in her head about me right when I need her to think good things about me as a barrier to anything else.
I just don't understand why she can't see that these things hurt me so much and why she can't see that they're not helpful to the M. Granted, she's not fully on board with the M so that's part of it. But why does she have to make a hard situation even harder by continually throwing hurdles in front for me to jump?
