Wow,you still think I'm stuck where I was 4 years ago? It might seem like it, but I don't agree. I come here to vent, wonder, ponder, check my emotions, rant and ask for help from all of you here. I let it all hand out here and sometimes, yes sometimes the tiny part of my heard wonders if maybe I should make an effort to see if X wants to mend our R. I have never made an effort since our D, though X has a couple of times. I simply spooked her as soon as she mentioned she wanted to see what could be made of our R.

I think the Adderall kicked in the anxiety and it took a week or so to work out. Like I said, it effected all parts of my life, not just my X.

I can see right through my X's BS. The only part where I could possibly go mad would be trying to understand her thoughts and motives for the way she leads her life. It is a losing sitch. and it is simply a dead end road. That is where it gets me sometimes.

As far as my frame of mind with regards to X, I am fine. I've gotten to be my regular self when it comes to the X. I was hurt for so long that it carried for quite a while. Our R over the last 2 years or so has been very good. We've had our spats, very minor. We both agreed this spring how nice it was to be parents and friends.

I can see from my posts this last few weeks that I have been my old self, but this was only a temporary state. I spent the last two weeks trying to make out all my feelings and what was happeneing between X and GF.

The thread is about not giving up on DBing after the D. I was gone for a while, but I have never stopped DBing. Maybe a little diluted because I have to read up a little more so I don't forget. I use DBing in everyday sitchs, work, kids, parents, GF, etc. DBing works in all parts of my life.

Everyone has their opinion and can post what is on their minds when it comes to my family and I. I am not bothered by your post OT, I just know how far I've come and beg to differ with your posts. Sure there is a wee little bit of hurt from the D, I just remain possitive and keep DBing.

Roberto

I believe that dreams are more powerful than facts,that laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death