He's been incredibly helpful/supportive the last week or so. And more affectionate. I think I scored major brownie points in the AOS department (a biggie for him) when I helped him move a couple of weeks ago. I didn't even do it because I was trying to get anything...just because that's what you do for family. I suppose that's the best reason. Giving just because you want to, no expectations.
The other thing it could be, is that I'm making more of an effort to not push him away myself. So I've just plain been more pleasant to be around.
I've been working on being more social. I usually try to find some excuse or another as to why I 'can't' do something. Well, I'm trying to get rid of those!! Today I had planned to go to the gym at lunch, but could just as easily go after work. A chance came up to go with coworkers. Normally, I would have found an excuse to not go... So I made sure I went. (Now, I need to make sure that I actually do go the gym after work.) I am also going to try to go out with D and her coworkers on this Saturday.
Yesterday I went digging through my old threads under my old user name. I just wanted to see if any of the people I remembered from years ago were still here. (None of them, apparently.) Anyway, I started reading through them...
It was probably not a good idea. It really creeped me out that, 3.5 years later, I am basically writing the same story, working on the same issues with myself. Except that I'm a lot less optimistic and a lot more bitter now.
And, as weird as it may sound, one of the things I keep going back to is that I want us together so I can have more time with my baby. What a weird reason, I guess. 'Compatibility' is clearly not our problem. We have tons of fun together. I just don't want to play 'divorced family'. It sucks. And we had the most amicable divorce I've ever heard of.
