there will be positive forward movement and then they will retreat for a period of time
That's always a good reminder. I was thinking about that the other day...but it's always good to hear it, you know?
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He is there NOW.
Excellent advice.
I also realized I had been holding onto some resentment over the miscarriage I had. (Before I conceived DS.) Basically, I already knew I was miscarrying, but was feeling worried about the blood loss and that I felt dizzy and weak, so I went to the hospital. Anyway, xh was simply horrid, and while I was waiting on one test result or another...I actually told him to leave, and that I would call when he could come pick me up. I know he was hurt in his own way, and just not handling it well. But I couldn't deal with his juvenile behavior at that point.
Oh, no, he didn't tell me. lol It's not likely for awhile. His need to divulge things usually coincides with when he's getting closer...and he's pulled back just a tad the last couple of days. (Admittedly, I have played a part in this.) It doesn't really bother me that much, anyway, right now. I have some ideas.
JD is a mess. She's married, but her husband is abusive. (Controlling, and definitely verbally. We suspect it's physical as well, just given this. He's an addict, prone to temper tantrums.) They can't even really hang out alone, except at the gym. But they text and chat on MySpace all the time. I took a peak at the MySpace messages once...no thank you, I felt ill. I'm quite certain my desire to do that was just some subconscious need to justify picking a fight so I could pull back. While I hadn't seen 'proof' before that, so to speak, it wasn't anything I didn't already know.
Aaaanyway. I suspect she will disappear from his radar, eventually. His 'bad friend choices' usually do, sooner or later. Every once in awhile, he'll tell me that I "shouldn't worry about her", and that he's "confused" and "doesn't know what it is". So, whatever. I'm the one he's calling ten times a day, I'm the one he's still playing relationship with, and I'm the one he already has a kid with. (Trying to cheer myself up a bit. ) I don't feel betrayed or anything. We are legally divorced. Just...sort of hurt.
I was thinking about that the other day...but it's always good to hear it, you know?
