I've always (at least since we all started this journey) known that in addition to being the "exotic" Sunnyokie, she was the "insightful as h&ll" Sunnyokie...
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This lines up perfectly with something my other therapist (Sunny) pointed out to me yesterday - Pusher Nomo has been back in full swing with all of the changes I am forcing in my sitch.
Truth is, I've been thinking the same thing, and just have been so much in my own 'limbo mode' to do much of any posting to you or anyone (and god knows how long it's been since i posted on my own thread...) Sitting back and letting things evolve is clearly not your modus operandi. Remember when we talked about the tennis metaphor...how I knew there was no way you were a pusher on the court??? You don't appear to do anything half-speed, be it work or play or DBing or livin' large with new 'friends'...
And, in all probability, this has worked really well for you for most of the many important things you've accomplished so far in your life. But this whole thing is so different...I really get how you feel about it; the frustration at W and the whole sitch that she just doesn't 'get it'... that you've had absolutely no problem in being desired by other women (what is W's problem, anyway?) and that you are just sick and tired of dealing with this crap for another year, month, week or day!
But I am so glad to hear that maybe you are trying that 'other' Pusher Nomo on for size for a little while... just keeping the ball in play.
And sitting in the stands, cheering you on, are those two precious kids. You know, something that Michele wrote that I reread often to recommit myself to keep on keepin' on is a piece where she talks about how her parents' divorce affected her, and how she came to this gradual realization in her work as a therapist that divorce changes our children's lives forever, and that this became a rallying point for her. Our children (even when they are not really children anymore) are the only truly blameless people in all of this; they deserve nothing less than our absolute best effort to keep our marriages and families together.
Been thinking about you lots...glad you are giving yourself a little more time and space...
