I'm still doing it

[nephartiti]

Thanks for visiting everyone. Yup, I've been eating the ice cream lately.

Today I got up a little resentful at H. S2 got sick yesterday. He tends to have a sensitive stomach, but yesterday, he really got sick. He was vomitting himself into convulsions. His whole body was shaking. He kept holding his eyes because they were rolling back on him. I was so scared for him, and he was scared too. Then he started asking for his father. We weren't home, but when we got here he was looking for him. We had all left at the same time after H's visit. S2 expected him to still be here.

S2 wanted to call, but I knew H was not available at that time. I am so angry that he is not available, even for S2 when he really needs him. Last night, I just did my best to comfort S2, but today, I am a little resentful.

I will not be answering calls today, if he even calls. I don't think I can play the pleasant happy person today. Dark is the word of the day today. I was planning on dimming the switch a little anyway. Today I just need a breather.

I went for a run this morning. I used to run 3-4 miles a day back in the day (days long ago). It's been a few years now. I surprised myself by almost making a mile. Boy those endorphins feel good. I was hoping I could leave all my anger out there, but I'm still a little ticked.

I want to lose a few more pounds too. My size 8's are falling off too, but I am only 5 feet so I could lose a few more.

MK, Tori is one powerful woman. There have been many times in my life when I felt like I was crawling on my knees and have been able to reclaim my power as a woman through her music. I refer to it as Tori Gospel. I know, I probably take it a little too far, but she really speaks to me. Don't let any man take that away from you, whether it is Tori or any one/thing else.

I did send H a few pics off the new camera last night with a thank you. I think he was a little disappointed when I put it in the bag instead of playing with it right away after he set it all up for me. I don't want to be rude I plan on trying it outside in the daylight today.

Best wishes to everyone.