must just be one of those nights, lwb. at least you had storms as an excuse, my kids, for the most part, had no reason to be up. blech.
very nice of your H to try to let you sleep...until the garage door fiasco, of course.
getting thru the day. did my ab tape, decided to save the gym for when H comes today. need to go to the grocery store, trying to figure out how I can get away with not going. lol. think I have enough provisions to make it thru the week so I can go on the weekend. will make some cookies with the kids today, which will make them happy and give them a treat. yes, h is coming over...maybe I should be making cookies when he is around, maybe then he'll appreciate me. not. making oatmeal raisin, so it doesn't look like I'm trying to tempt him (choc chip man). lol.
good point mk has about them all looking for what everyone else wants. fits my h to a T. and he has found it with her, he has. it sucks that he wasn't willing to try to find it here, with me, but I don't think there is anything I can do but accept that fact and move on. just hard to do, but I'll get there. I'm going to stop thinking about whether their relationship will last or will break up. it doesn't matter, really. eventually will have to deal with the kids meeting her and such, if they do stay together, and wow that will suck, but I know even that I will survive. might take a bottle of tequilla, but I'll get thru it. hopefully not something I have to think of for a while. guessing push will come to shove around the holidays, though.
ways I'm going to move myself forward:
start my mantra up again whenever thoughts of THEM creep into my mind.
get my journal going daily again.
do something/try something new.
put myself out there socially, expand my group. I've been doing pretty well with this, but find myself slipping a bit into hibernation mode.
start reading again. I've stopped for a bit, both self-help and fun reading, need to start it up again. bought several new books and going to start one tonight.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
