Thank you everyone. I had a major meltdown this morning though. I cried hysterically just thinking about my wife still loving that OM. I thought I was doing better but I felt like I wanted to just die because sometimes I don't know how much more pain I can take before I just break. Being there for my wife and my son though keeps me going until I can become stronger and better for myself. My wife told me one of our couple friends, suggested going out on a double date with a widowed friend of theirs but my wife declined (Our friends think her OM is an ass by the way but I don't know why they mentioned a 2nd person instead of mentioning me)My wife said to not be mad at them because she said they said it without thinking. Maybe that comment set my crying spell off, I don't know. My wife's sexy underwear came yesterday and know of course I am just crazy with jealously thinking the OM will be the one to see her in them :-( SOrry for ranting, I'm just so depressed again
