Lets try thing again!!!!

[limbo]

So H and I had some issue's last night...we both realized we didn't handle it well.
H was telling me about all this extra work he has coming up, which will require him to work later and some weekends. He then asked me how I felt about it...so I told him it terrifys me, he got really angry and really could understand why, because we are doing so well. So he then went up into the shower to sulk and then laid on the bed.
So I went to talk to him, and he said he is disappointed because he thought we were further then this.
I explained to him that all the feeling don't just go away after the retro weekend, yes they are better and I am dealing with things way better, but there was alot of damage done and thoughts scars will take some time to really fade away. I also told him that I was disappointed, because I had expected to be treated better then this, that all the steps we have made, don't count for much when it comes to difficult things, we just go back to normal in handling things!
He later came out and apologized and realized he didn't handle it well, and I admitted I did to, but I also said that trust is going to take time, that I had trusted him in the past, and each time was devasted to find out it had been broken, so this time around I am just alittle bit more caustious.
He said he understood that...but I have to wonder if he really does, does he really get the level of pain that I felt during this past year, all the really, really hurtful things he said to me, and did to me...does he really get the pain this caused.
Sometimes I really wonder.