Wow, my first thread has locked! I guess I'm fully initiated the club now, but I'm also a little punchy from all the hazing.
Andy, man, thanks for sharing that. I've really been feeling guilty for the pressure I'm now seeing in S6 over the hard facts I presented him. And I have to reel this back in. W has a right to be furious over this, but not for the reasons she purports.
Lwb, my W gets extremely angry at any attempt to clear up the fog.
I feel like I've really screwed up everything now. My W is already threatening me over my parental rights, and this latest attempt to bring what i thought would be a little sanity back into the picture has made things worse. I know MIL is telling W to seek a lawyer and to have me taken completely out of the picture (I've got my sources) -- but that comes as no surprise. That my W has made me out to be her utmost enemy since the bomb is still so shocking.
I have to ask myself though, is going dark really going to help? Part of the problem W has had with me is withdrawing under pressure. But then she wants her space and I need to not come off as pursuing her. Catch-22.
She disrespects me, because in her own words I have always been too nice. She certainly doesn't like confrontation either (unless she's doing all the confronting.) So I'm either too passive and weak, or too opinionated and disagreeable. I'm either too cold and callous, or too fiery hot and angry. Catch-22.
<commentary> I thought I might as well share the lyrics behind my thread (I'm sure most of you are familiar with it.)
There's a little black spot on the sun today It's the same old thing as yesterday There's a black hat caught in a high tree top There's a flag-pole rag and the wind won't stop
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain With the world turning circles running 'round my brain I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
There's a little black spot on the sun today That`s my soul up there It's the same old thing as yesterday That`s my soul up there That's a black hat caught in a high tree top There`s my soul up there There's a flag-pole rag and the wind won't stop That`s my soul up there
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain With the world turning circles running 'round my brain I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
There's a fossil that's trapped in a high cliff wall That`s my soul up there There's a dead salmon frozen in a waterfall That`s my soul up there There's a blue whale beached by a spring tide's ebb That`s my soul up there There's a butterfly trapped in a spider's web That`s my soul up there
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain With the world turning circles running 'round my brain I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
There's a king on a throne with his eyes torn out There's a blind man looking for a shadow of doubt There's a rich man sleeping on a golden bed There's a skeleton choking on a crust of bread
King of pain
There's a red fox torn by a huntsman's pack That`s my soul up there There's a black-winged gull with a broken back That`s my soul up there There's a little black spot on the sun today It's the same old thing as yesterday
I have stood here before inside the pouring rain With the world turning circles running 'round my brain I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign But it's my destiny to be the king of pain
King of pain King of pain King of pain I'll always be king of pain I'll always be king of pain I'll always be king of pain I'll always be king of pain I'll always be king of pain
