yep, that would be really high on my list. just scummy. hopefully he holds the guilt of that dear, because he deserves to, for a very, very long time.
I love my therapist. truly, I would be friends with her if I could. she challenges me, supports me, comforts me, educates me. I would say every single appt I've had with her, even when I was at my lowest, or even when I wasn't, I came out feeling better/stronger/more focused than when I went in. I can definitely see a difference in myself. even when I slip, when I feel like I have gone backward instead of forward, I can see the progress. wish I could share her with everyone...everyone deserves someone like her.
preparing for war, hmmm? interesting, that. in a way, its true, I am, I guess.
I've been watching The War tonight, and my mind has wandered here and there to ow and H. I keep trying to refocus the visions, turn them off mostly, but also revamp them. Its like I have a little mk sitting on my shoulder, turning it from sunshine and roses, to humdrum and daily annoyances. lol. she has to do something that annoys him, right? lol.
really, I'm doing okay, though. trying to figure out my day tomorrow. H is in my town for some business and he is coming by...means he can come by at any time, so that kind of has me on my guard a bit, I guess. but making my plans...definitely trying to incorporate more "as if" into my time with him than the last few days have shown.
the morning, at least, is mine. will be off to the gym, hopefully. my triceps are still killing me from yesterday's workout. obviously I've been slacking on them, and omg, I didn't yesterday. rotten rope pull down. grumble grumble. hopefully will feel better tomorrow, and I suppose a little pain is good once in a while. but ouch.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
