eventually if things reach an even keel where we stay possitive for a length of time...the ole trust issue comes up. I don't have to face it when h is not being "there" as that seems to be more of interest to me. but when h is being the good h..doing the right things etc...I start to wonder is it all a charade...does he still talk to ow?? does he still see ow?? do they still have some "plan" to be together...would ow be that ignorant???
is there anyway for me to trust h that ow is gone and that he wont resume the "friendship"?? h gets angered when I bring her up...I don't like to ask about her because it frustrates him..but I do need to know that this ow is gone and that h is not simply making nice nice with me so that he can have the best of both worlds...his family and his pittiful ow.
if this were last year this time I already would have called ow today and told her to find a new landscaper and to stay away from my h (among calling her other things) she would then try to fire him...he would call me and give me crap for calling her...it's his business (ya well buddy ya made her my business when you stop just being her landscaper) I know ow will lie to me..she did before...there really is no way for me to know if she is gone or not...hell h could mask dropping her as a customer simply to appease me but still continue the "friendship" I belived him before when he said he eneded the r with her...believed her when she said they no longer talked cept for business related stuff...only to find out later they were talking every freaking day!!
will I ever trust this man??? I don't know...maybe I shouldn't but I don't know if I can simply accept it that way...after all if I don't trust him and can't talk to him about it...what's to stop me from "living my life"
blindly trust him...did that for years and look where it got me!!
I know too damn much about people and the world...
grrrr!!! h wants to hang out tonight and play darts...asked if we needed anything at the liquor store...I don't need to play darts...I need to "talk" R talk that is.
I don't know...just not feeling right about things..perhaps the snow...maybe he plowed her driveway again??? grrrrr!!!
can't ask him....
grrrr!!!
put on a happy face LL!!
h wont be home til 6:30 ish...has to go do some sanding incase it snows or gets cold tommorow...wtf???
whatever...if she didn't block her damn phone I'd call and see if she answers. but that wouldn't be right of me would it.
