why is it that something as meaningless as whether or not h makes the bed in the morning has an effect on how I feel??
h hardly ever used to make the bed...even when he stays in it for hours after I get out of it...some mornings h will make the bed while he's up there showering and getting ready for his day..and other days he just leaves the rumpled mess that it becomes when he sleeps in it (all summer all I had to do was pull the comforter back up cause I don't tangle the bed all up like he does.
I know it's a foolish thing..but when I go up there after he's gotten ready and find it made..I smile, I am happy, when he doesn't make it...grrrr it bothers me...I don't say anything cause wtf really it's just a bed. but this am I made breakfast (pancakes, sausages, oj and fresh coffee for h) h did help clean up (well put everything in the sink) while getting breakfast ready I swept the floors, took up the rugs and put them in the wash (the crap from the driveway was imbedded in them) after breakfast continued to sweep the floors while h put stuff in the sink and wiped the table..then off to the shower goes h while I do all the dishes...finnish sweeping...mop the floors and dry mop the hardwood...h tra la la comes down and puts on his boots getting kisses from the kiddos and off to work he goes.
should I be bothered by something so simple??? probably not but it does add to things...the fact that I don't know what h's plans for today are? what time we should expect him home? the fact that I didn't get a hug this morning...theese little things all add up...that I know h doesn't see...
don't get me wrong it's not like he does nothing..as I said he did help clear the table..did poor the juice and get out the plates (although he seems to always go for paper plates) and silverware...did say thank you...
I didn't end up going out last night...instead I sat and worked on the craft project I mentioned before..I should be able to finnish it with one more sitting...while h watched cnn and eventually fell asleep on the couch...all in all not a bad evening.
perhaps the day will get better as it goes along.
got my hair cut yesterday..I feel like I should just go back to the long hair I used to have as it seems my hairdresser just doesn't remember the way she cut it the first time...I don't think I like it this time..too short on the bottom and too long on the top...oh well it's just hair it'll grow...
