There and Back, #7

[SallyM]

oooh, I get to pick a color? I like the first one, the dark blue. very nice.

nope, not spiraling into depression. at least that is one thing. my therapist and I talked about how that whirlpool works, and how I'm okay because I let that river keep on flowing and such.

but yeah, too much focus on him. I told my therapist straight out today, that's what the next couple of weeks will be. I know they will be. but I will get past it, and it won't be all the time. and (cover your eyes if this scares you) right about now there are probably some hormones at work, too. (ok, uncover your eyes).

the good news is, I can answer a definitive yes to the three following:

The frequency of your hurting times getting less
The intensity of your hurting times getting less
The duration of your hurting times getting shorter

as for the how to get more detached question, I didn't mean to ignore it, just giving it some thought. I like your answers...good ones, those. so I'm going to just say, yes, like that. I have to say, my therapist really did help me see that even though I am still attached and am still hurting/grieving, I have come soooo far. she really made me see and appreciate my progress. I think your point about focusing on that is a really good one.

thanks for the sympathy and the insight/advice. it does help.

I'm okay again. just like that pot that boils over, like my friend says...I feel intensely, externalize it (in this case in the rant here), then can release it. at least I didn't go off on H, which is what I was tempted to do before posting here. its going to be a tightrope walk for me not doing that over the next week or 2, but going to keep coming here, and to my journal, and to my friends. going to keep working out, and keep myself busy, and focus on the good things.