Cemar, I was just joking! I have sent three post and then deleted them. At first, I was mad, then I cried, and now......I just don't know what to say. I don't want to think about the OM or what I did to motivate him. I'm trying my best NOT to think about him. I flirted, I teased, I did things I'm not proud of and had rather forget about. I'm having a hard time forgiving myself and I refuse to dwell on what took place between me and the OM.
What took place between you and om took place for one of the following reasons:
Your destruction
or
Your enlightenment.
YOU - and only you - get to decide which.
This is where He sets to turning things that were meant for your destruction around for your good. If you do not ever think about the time you spent interacting with om, life-changing realizations and lessons will elude you.
There's a blessing in every storm. Don't be afraid to look back there to find yours. THAT is where blessings were BORN.
And there is no shame in that when you're on this side, Sandi. You might have once been a tool of the enemy but now you're standing in the light. An Overcomer. And yes, overcoming is something you do AGAIN AND AGAIN.
I don't even try to keep up with your thread anymore, Sandi. I just jump in when I feel like it.
Hang in there lady. And those things you said about yourself to cemar, THEY ARE ALL YOU and they are nothing to be ashamed of.
