Today was a quieter day than yesterday, I suppose because we both had said the tough stuff earlier. I didn't file, yet, simply not feeling like it, but it does seem inevitable. The kids and I are now going to Boston for fall break, and I plan to have fun, and forget the wife and our issues for a bit.
The issue is now how long a period from filing to final decree I should request. It can be between 6 and 12 months. I had thought of taking 9, so the kids could finish their school year, but then heard that the high school my son can go to depends on his grades next Christmas, 15 months from now. I dont' want to screw up his future by upsetting him for that crucial fall term, so maybe have to stick this out for a while longer... Getting a final divorce decree doesn't mean we have to move apart then.
Also, yes, while I miss having a woman with me at night quite a bit, I won't descend to my wife's level and cheat on our marriage and so justify her behavior. It sure is tough though, being without feminine affection for nearly 4 years, and time is passing and I am not getting any more attractive...
Maybe a quick 6 month file to decree period and selling the house just as school ends next spring would be better? Maybe this would give my son time enough to recover and get good grades so he can get into a good high school and so have a good future?
No good solutions in sight yet -
Luke
M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.
