Need Help/ Suggestions - Part 2

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I had a positive evening last night. I came home from work and my W and I planned to go buy some furniture for my office and get some paint as well. We decided not to do so because of numerous reasons.

We did however decide to go grab some dinner and a couple drinks. We had a great conversation and no real pressure. She even asked to go look at a few things at the mall nearby.

It is still really tough though, we are now sleeping in seperate rooms. I miss her everyday, she does not want to be touched or any forms of affection but how can she if she does not trust me.

She will not let herself get into a vulnerable position with me since I have lost her trust and why should I blame her. As much as I miss her I can only focus on myself. I am going to have my inital meeting with a pastor at church and hopefully he can give me some referrals. I am actually excited about going, I will have a chance to work on some things and get some impartial feedback.

I just pray that a new beginning with my W is in the works. I will survive without her but it would be better for all of us if it was together.