Hmmmm, I just had a very unpleasant thought about myself. As mentioned in my previous post, I was my W's emotional support for quite a long time as she developed into the strong person she is today. I don't know that I trust/believe in her ability to be emotionally honest with herself and am treating her with the repeated badgering, in some ways, like I would a child. Partly this is due to the fact that she hasn't opened up to me in a while, and when she did, I wasn't always emotionally there because I wasn't all too keen on myself for a while.
Maybe the gentle tone of your note, OT, shocked me into that. I don't think it's quite that cut and dried -- I don't think that she's a child emotionally. However, in many ways, I've been approaching her as if she doesn't know any better and treating her as such -- "i know better than you. Listen to me."
Sigh. Let's see how long I can go. Anyone up for an over/under on days until I mouth off again? I'm betting the over this time.
Crap.
BD
My latest
Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
