I really want to get as much time with my son's as I can possibly get.
(In fact, if this M does end in D, I intend to seek not only joint legal custody, but joint physical custody as well. I know it's a long shot, but I think it's worth it.)
I can't control my W's actions, and if she abuses my willingness to take the S's off her (and the MIL's) hands whenever I am able, so be it. I don't like the fact that this is harmful to our R, since W will have less respect for me, but I think the benefit to my R with my S's outweighs that. I just have to tough it out, because it still really hurts to see what she's doing -- not just to me and our M but to my S's and our family.