One thing and this is something I have to tell myself all the time: your happiness should not depend on him. I found my moods rolling along with whatever W did that day (and they still do to some extent) and I got tired of it. I got tired of not being able to decide when I was going to be happy and when I was going to be upset. I did some reading and came to see that what was going on with me was classic codependency. So, I had to work at decoupling my happiness from what she did. Not perfect at it at all but I am better. You seem to be into prayer and that's good because that's how I did it. I just prayed for her to be taken care of and for the stregth to live my life on my own. I had to detach or I was going to drive myself nuts.
OK, so I lied, I have a second thing. Have you noticed that your ability to stay "insane" about a situation has fallen? Initially, I would let my mind run wild on me for a week or more when things with her weren't going well. Now, I get a day, maybe two and then I seem to snap out of it. Either I make a choice and can stick to it or I wake up feeling a lot better than I did the night before. Just curious if that is happeneing for anyone else.
